Dark Days

A week or so before June 1 the fog returns. I am agitated, sad and lonely. June 1 was the six year anniversary of Matt's death. It was tougher this year, not sure why. My husband took the day off and we went to Lake Chelan as our regular routine on that day. We had a nice lunch and then looked at one of the scrapbooks I had made with cards given us that tragic day. We look at a different one every year remembering all the love sent our way. When we arrived home our son and daughter-in-law were at our house. They were digging on our hillside. He had to have his dog put down. I just lost it. But as we went to their home for a BBQ (first time we had been able to share an anniversary with one of our kids) he handed me a picture of Matt and his dog. He said, "Matthew is up in heaven playing with Damian." A bright outlook on a very tough day.

The darkness has continued through this month - not sure why but maybe it is the lousy weather. The one highlight was getting to take care of my grandchildren for four days while our daughter and son-in-law went to Arizona. At least someone got HOT weather! We had a good time. Now, I am back struggling and praying to the Lord for help out of the fog.

Spring

I'm BACK! Computer problems or should I say blog problems! Thanks to a couple good friends my blog is up and running again. Spring has been long, cold, windy and rainy. Tennis season was dampened by that lovely weather. I never knew what to expect but had to prepare for whatever the day brought. Huge skill difference in my players so I had to have two lesson plans. Lots of hard work but the main thing is I love coaching. As the end of spring nears I can't help but wonder what summer will bring. I love hot weather, hanging out at the pool or the lake. This year we are going to Hawaii for a week. Summer isn't my favorite time in Hawaii but my husband can't get off during the school year. At least we should have good weather in case springs weather decides to hang out.

Next blog I will catch you up on what has been happening with my book and the month of June.